I didn’t feel like I was being lazy but because I wasn’t full of energy and preferred to lie down and read a book, or sit down and have a conversation, or because I didn’t want to clean my room, or because I wasn’t bouncing off the walls, I would have this word thrown at me accusingly.
As a teenager it was even worse, as I required a lot more time out as I grappled with overwhelming emotions, surging hormones, a passionate soul and an empathic and sensitive nature.
As an adult I tried to avoid situations where I could be construed as being “lazy”, because it’s never said lovingly, it’s actually quite a damaging accusation and for me, even though I couldn’t explain it,
I knew the difference between having ENERGY for something and not having energy for something.
It had nothing to do with being lazy; which means idle, indolent, slothful, lethargic, dull, slow and unwilling to work, and more to do with discernment of where, when and with whom I chose to spend my energy.
As an introvert I feel like I have a finite amount of energy that can be used on social or extroverted pursuits, before I will need to recharge my batteries. As an introvert, I recharge my batteries through quiet alone time and independent passions and interests. As a passionate Leo woman, I know what it’s like to be in the flow, to feel inspired, to have so much energy that you can just go and go, it’s quite natural to find those sweet spots when you are doing what is in alignment with your soul and what you love. So to me, now that I am an adult and I know much more about personality types, especially introverts and extroverts, I realise that throughout my life I have been called LAZY when what they actually meant was introverted and therefor, somehow, not socially acceptable.
I really wanted to share this information with everyone, especially fellow introverts, because it’s really quite rude and hurtful, to have derogatory comments and labels pushed onto you. Just because others don’t understand your natural energy movement and want to characterize behaviours according to what that might mean if THEY were doing, or not doing, particular activities themselves, doesn’t mean it actually applies to you, only you can know that.
So now, whenever I need to recharge, or if I find I don’t have energy for something, or someone, instead of beginning to feel guilt that I might be lazy, I remind myself that it is ENERGY DISCERNMENT and as a mature and wise woman, it is something I have learned to do more and more of, so that I do have the energy I need, to do the things I truly want to do, when I want to do it!
So please before you label yourself or anyone else lazy, take some time to check in, what may look lazy could actually be something way more admirable than that….
Lots of Love
“Sacred Feminine Practitioner”
DISCERNMENT: taste, discrimination, refinement, cultivation, sophistication, enlightenment, sensitivity, subtlety; insight, perceptiveness, astuteness, ingeniousness, cleverness, intelligence, sharpness, wisdom, and awareness…